tenacious_jody

interesting

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 17:47:30 GMT

well life is good? I dunno I hope so.

Elephant

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 01:54:04 GMT

Just watched a movie, it was pretty intense. It was called Elephant and was about highschool. Yes this movie was like the shocking truth to what highschool is it shows you what we all see. and what few of us see behind it all. And its all during one day ... a day where two kids decide to bring guns to school and kill as many kids as possible. Well i loved it. it was intense from start to finish and was played by actual high school students. It was rather depressing but hey thats life isn't it?

Instinct sucks.
People suck.
Work sucks

I think a lot of things suck. I probably think you suck too :)

Remember all of this now. Then in the future you will all understand.

nothing matters anymore

Drunk Drink Drank

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 19:00:59 GMT

I need my band to start writing music right now. Right when the emotion is raw. Before this gets any better or worse. Then maybe I can accomplish something in this minor slump I am in. Writing is always better during depressions. I just found two cool new bands. well new to me but oh well. Still Life Projector, and He Is Legend. So good.

I have been dreaming odd dreams lately. I dreampt of her last night. I don't know of its good or bad. I wish she would just call me. She finaly gives me her number but still never calls me. I wish I didn't see all the subtilities, I wish I just accepted things as good instead of seeing all that is wrong. Maybe they should all just start doing things that make me happy? Sorry I am so picky but if you really want to be with me thats life isn't it.

The full name of the song i am listening to is called
Either they decorated for christmas early or they're all dead by he is legend

hmmm

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 04:42:32 GMT

I am so damn tired of repitition... I am in dire need of change. I think I ave a hold on howing to trick myself to change since I know I am stubborn and won't do so easily. Change is always for the best. Impulsive is just what I need right now. Oh how intrigued I am, admiration has never felt so strange. Well I guess its time to say good bye to my old self. "break in the new year, fear whipped us into shape". One day I will meet Tim and we will have a very deep conversation. I mean he realized too late he was living the wrong life... I can change it I still have time.

Rock bottom

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 02:42:22 GMT

Oh sweet dirt. You make my mouth so dry. My lip is bloodied and bruised... Well now Jody is angry. Fuck You... Fuck You all.

bang bang

Mon, 30 May 2005 03:03:56 GMT

You are a liar. You tell me the amount of times you will try and you don't. You do everything that I ask for when its over, and usualy you do it for other people. We made a pact and you can't even seem to keep that up... You think you know whats best for me. What will make me happy. Stop kidding yourself. You obviously didn't know anything. and besides I think your happier now anyways. I hope it hurts. I hope it hurts as much as its hurting me.

I Think I realize Now that this pain I feel is because you only care when your a broken heart.

Fri, 27 May 2005 05:51:55 GMT

Dear Lady

Is this what I get?

Love Jody

bizare

Tue, 24 May 2005 13:41:45 GMT

I relate to a crazy character from a movie.

"you replied to my letter with a 2 minute quote from the cabale guy?" haha I sure did :)

Why?... cause I suck!

I kissed you on the neck and said the things I never should have said... I love this song... for a local band it blows my mind

So... yea

Sat, 21 May 2005 03:28:47 GMT

So I hate my work. So I am almost for certain going to london. So... yea i still feel like shit. Lots of things feel like shit right now and others fill quite good... its all weird ... I wish my life would stop fucking with my head but oh well, I do this to myself. I am listening to the new in pieces album its amazing. I love that band... although not many people have heard of them... anyways... this is me signing off YAR

this feeling in my gut won't go away

Mon, 16 May 2005 04:17:04 GMT

Love

um ... um... yea

Tue, 10 May 2005 00:55:46 GMT

So... I need answers, I need friends, but that won't happened. because friends suck! and hey so do answers! ... yay! ... so does family! ... and The country Gambia! ... and the pope! ... and ... and... and feelings!... andcar crashes! ... and friends! ... oh did i say friends already? ... i mean i guess i should really call them people whom i thought more highly then of others but are really just like everyone else... heres to being alone!

*dances to a ditty*

*dies*

Dear life.

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:08:59 GMT

Stop being stupid.

Love Jody

is this how a toy feels when its battery runs dry

Sat, 07 May 2005 05:00:24 GMT

remember to breathe...

This Is It, Fuck This City

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 03:41:23 GMT

So they say they are friends? Then lie to your face... I mean come on? Does this happen even when you get older? The stupid immature childish acts? What the fuck is with not being honest... You think your gonna hurt my feelings? no I would rather you be honest durr... This place, the people, I hate them all. Stupid conservative, egotistical, uncaring, pathetic individuals that make up the majority population of cambridge Ontario.

Your in a band, you put effort into it... years go by and your still opening local shows... why? cause apparently we aren't cool people. Thats right. This has nothing to do with our music. In fact we could make really good music and we would still open in cambridge because we are the most uncool people. In fact most of the people here only like us cause jesse is hot and mike is funny. You know fuck this place. We play one show out of cambridge and everyone there likes us. We get people odd people every once in awhile that say hey we like you and those are true fans. But you hardly ever find them in cambridge. So saturday we are playing this concert... we our playing at 12:45 in the afternoon... while bands who have never played a show before are playing around 6 at night ... reason? they are a popular bunch of kids, and friends of the people running the show... are they good? well i heard them yesterday at an audition and they suck. not really i mean they can all play their instruments but it was really boring the song had no build up. and yet at the same audition both bands that i sang in got cheers from the crowd watching but since the judge doesn't like us i guess were not in. Stupid bitch. Saturday I am gonna drop a bombshell and scream at the top of my lungs that i fucking hate this city... and you know who will be there city representitives too. and then if we make it to under the stars i am gonna fuck it up on purpose. What happened to music? why all this political bullshit? why not make music have fun ? isn't that what its about? I think we lost the point somewhere...

i dunno how it worked... but i do like hey mercedes

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 04:21:55 GMT


hey mercedes are love
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NEW!!

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 04:18:11 GMT

The new cd is out finaly. Its 7 dollars. HURRAH! yea... I got contacted by kiros they want me to throw them a show i am trying my best... but alas they are expensive and cambridge sucks haha. but i am trying oh so hard. you me and the machine might be making an ep soon too with our new songs + remixes haha before we lose our bassist and have to find a new one. I am moving to london soon an then the party will be rocked, and we will have cars and we can start playing bigger shows in toronto london, and other fun places. Hurrah!

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 04:53:37 GMT

life is always so busy... i just want to chillax for a bit. I want to chillax with Petrija, and maybe stare at pretty clouds and poke each other and why not? ... I think I deserve a nice break from it *sigh*.

So this is what it means...

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 02:51:24 GMT

Dear Life

I will find away to win. You think your so good, and you can throw things at me to stop me but you will see. I will have you on the ground slit from the throat life i will do it. Don't tempt a desperate man with a mission. I have no real mission you know that but still don't piss me off. Things are ok right now lets let them stay this way for awhile ok? Thanks...

Love Jody

P.S I hate you still

Hey life... Fuck you

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 03:46:04 GMT

Yea, so i no longer will be living at home... I now need to find a place to live. Right now i am at Mikes. You know, what the hell am I doing anymore? This life has fucked with me far too many times, and who is there for me? my band... well two of my band mates really... thats my back bone, and even then its not strong, sure i hve my friends and aquaintances, but shit is just so fucked I don't care anymore. I don't care about anything... where has it got me? I question everything all the time, my mind is like a fucking piss off and i wish to shoot it. Ever seen the movie pi? where the guy has a number in his head that contains all the secrets to the world and in the end he drills a hole in his head. So that he won't ever remember again. Thats what I want. I want to forget this fucked up shitty life that i live. And find something better.

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 05:57:48 GMT

You scored as Emo & More. Emo and Screamo.

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Emo & More

88%

Indie

75%

Indie Rock

58%

Industrial

50%

Punk and Pop Punk.

50%

Hardcore

42%

Hip Hop and Rap

33%

Britpop

29%

Ska

29%

Country

25%

Mainstream

21%

Classic Rock.

Music Recommendation
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Wed, 30 Mar 2005 20:22:04 GMT

1. pick twenty musicians
2. post them and see who can guess which song of each musician's is your favorite
3. once someone guesses right, bold that row and include your favorite song

Thursday - A Hole In This World
Poison The Well - Nerdy
My Chemical Romance- Demolition Lovers
Brand New - Soco Armeretto Lime
Saves The Day - Hold
The Get Up Kids - I'll Catch You
Reggie and the Full Effect - Congradulations matt and cristine
Senses Fail - Angela Baker and my obsession with Fire
Aphex Twin - Milkman
Death Cab For Cutie - Passenger seat
Cursive - Lament of pretty baby
Death From Above 1979 - Pull Out
The Blood Brothers - Love Rhymes With Hideous Car Wreck
Moneen- The last song i will ever want to sing
Armor For Sleep - Stay On The Ground
I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business - Untitled 2
Hopesfall - Dana Walker
The Postal Service - Natural Anthem
Thrice - Deadbolt
Deftones - Street Carp

this world doesn't really make sense

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 08:21:54 GMT

I am trying to comprehend an issue that many people live with. Self hatred. This issue usualy comes into the looks department, when one seems to be disgusted with their selves... Now a few of you will be reading this and go OH MY GOD HES TALKING ABOUT ME... and by a few a mean pretty much every woman I know. See the sad thing I realize is that you all feel the same way. Every last one of you. You give me all the same responses. Your not mentaly ill, there is nothing wrong with you mentaly. Why do you feel the need to do durastic things too feel beautiful i only get one response. with many names. SATISFACTION, PRIDE, COMPLETION, SELF FULLFILMENT. ??? ... its all for you to like yourselves... when have you ever liked yourself? I mean look wise... when have you ever found yourself pretty? ... I mean not that you can't judge yourself but there is no such thing as ugly, as there is no such thing as beauty either. Now I explain this to each one of you and you all agree with me... but if you agree with me why do you all still do the things you do? ... I myself was anorexic for close to three years. Three years of not eating and why? So i can be happy with my looks of course, was i happy of course. Happy in the sense of completion that i was looking better, BETTER still not great cause i don't beleive i can ever be satisfied with how i look. Aside from being beautiful to myself what did i feel? Sick, the one thing that hurt the most was my stomach, and i hear ALL of you complain about your stomachs and how you don't feel well, and how your so sick... is this pain worth it? All so you can look in a mirror and be oh i look beautiful WHEN THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS BEAUTY. It is nothing but subjective, I could love the smell of shit, I COULD because i can. There is at every short stop in canada a magazine called FAT CHICKS with naked fat people scattered throughout the magazine. No business would offer said product if it didn't sell. There is close to or over 7 billion people on this earth... and every single one of them likes something different. You want to tell me your ugly, yes to you your ugly... but to me to others you are beauty. I reasoned that the pain in my stomach, the everyday worrying about how i look, and how others look at me wasn't worth it. Is it worth it to all of you? Have we become a society that values trying to acheive a beauty perfection that doesn't exist instead of caring about being alive? Wouldn't you all rather living life, not caring about the way you look, after all in life what do looks matter. I am a 19 year old, with saggy man boobs, a big gut, fat thighs, a zitty face and back and chest, I have stubby hands, a hairy ass. Am I beautiful? to me? ... yea why not. why would i ever think i am not beautiful... because of other peoples opinions? You don't let other peoples opinions confuse you in other dicesions why let it bug you on this one? Under the eyes of holywood, and main stream media i am one ugly fuck. I am probably gonna get responses like :O JODY YOUR NOT UGLY WHAT ARE YOU SAYING BLAH BLAH BLAH ... you know if thats true, and you really feel that way ... why treat yourselves so horribly, when all i see is what beauty there is in every human being because we all are uniquely beautiful... and if i am some fag for thinking so i am. You think its about making yourself happy, is being sore happiness? Is being in pain a jolly good time? The world becomes smaller and less interesting every day, because people are becoming less and less like individuals and are becoming more of a collective. Your all starting to look the same. Your all starting to act the same... your all losing your identities. I am proud of my man tits. They are a part of me. without them I'd be like everyone else. I am more disgusted with wanting to look pretty because there is no pretty, I would be searching for something that doesn't exist. You all are searching for it. You won't find it. I only wish you the best. I only want you to start feeling well. To start caring about how am i gonna be happy today. We only have one life, one chance... why waste time on something like your looks when you can be living and enjoying yourself. In the end there is only one way looks matter or ever have mattered before and that is finding a mate. Most of you have boyfriends. Most of you have acheived that. You have succesfuly attracted a member of the opposite sex. All whom when asked what they think of you say you are beautiful. So your looks succeded at their purpose regardless if you liked them or not. Your looks really have no need to be changed when all your mates see the beauty in them. You are perfect and beautiful to them, and that is what really matters. They aren't with the stereotypical beautiful woman not cause they can't get them but because they don't think they are BEAUTIFUL. I found it funny watching the oscars with a friend of mine, and out of all the actresses that came onto the screen, she thought more of them were pretty then i did. In fact i hear that a lot now. ALL ... well almost all look at these stars and go BEAUTY!... HURRAH! ... while men ... at least myself. don't, we don't look at holywood and go HOT CHICK! HOT CHICK! HOT CHICK! ... well i can't say much for the gangsters who are to drug induced to speak proper english and only yell out shit to fit in with thier friends. You know I have often given this serious thought, I wonder now a days that if men even really think britnay spears is good looking. Do i? no... I mean some probably honestly find her attractive. I think thought hat most of the others only find her attractive because it is social accepted to find her attractive. It isn't socialy acceptable to go rosie o'donnelle (sp) is one sexy chick. In fact people make fun of her looks all the time and I think to myself I don't think shes overly beautiful in my mind but honestly i'd take her over avril lavigne who i think looks horid. I could go on forever but what it comes down to... You have a life. You have mates (some don't but will). You have passions. You have things that entertain you. You have all of these. Your looks don't affect any of these. Why waste your time with your appearance? I mean certain thing are for your own pleasure that you might find astheticaly apealing, like tatoes, or piercings, or certain styles of clothing, but why harm yourself to be "attractive" ... It shouldn't be worth it... You know I don't think any of you are stupid, but there is anti smoking ads out called stupid. Talking about how its stupid to smoke. All it does is kill you and the only thing it does for you is make you "feel better" and "look cool". I mean knowing this people still smoke ... its almost like the same thing you are all going through, and i know most of you think smoking is stupid. It is totaly, why willingly kill yourself? I mean a person who smokes won't die right away, but you will harm yourselves with time. Here you are all doing the same thing. Slowly but surely killing yourselves, shortening your life spans. For what? Think about it ... is it really worth it anymore?

MONEEN SURVeY ... sort of

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 08:54:27 GMT

: S u r v e y : :

1. Pick a band and answer only using the band's song titles: Moneen

2. Are you male or female: What the WeatherMAN Forgot To Tell You

3. Describe how you feel about yourself: Half empty? Half full? I never got a glass to start with

4. Your best piece of advice: Thoughts weigh heavy..don't get drowned in the weight of it all

5. Describe your last relationship: Start Angry ... End Mad

6. Describe your current crush: No better way to show your love than a set of broken legs

7. Say something to someone you have a crush on: I wish I was there to see the way it was supposed to be

8. Say something to an ex: What did you say?...I'm sorry, my eyes are on fire

9. Say something to someone who hurt you severely: This year I've had enough

10. How do you feel right now: Closing my eyes won't help me leave

19 and ... onward?

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 08:36:24 GMT

Hi... I am now 19, and I can purchase alcohol. Birthday fun... Satwant and I played Lego. Lego has not been played with for a while. I think i am gonna go back to playing lego... infact i will for sure... then maybe she can take a picture of it cause she seems to be good at that. Aphex Twin blows my mind... I have been listening to them non stop, Thank you Jesse. You Me and the Machine... cd is complete soon as it has been mass produced you will be able to buy it ... when will it be mass produced hopefull within 2 weeks... i will set a release date soon though and then hurrah! ... also our new site is up and soon as i learn how to edit the site even better lol.

*missing*

The Sound Of Sleep

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 05:42:27 GMT

Something new indeed. I am really really liking where this is going. My finger have blisters thats because i have never played bass so intensefully in my life. while dancing. and jumping. I think I am in love with this sound. I hope we start a craze. I want to see people shake their bums cause its gonna be amazing. Electronica rules.... indie rules... the combination even better.

You Me and the Machine shows:

April 2nd - Scout hut 31 kribs dr
3p.m, 6$ in advance (talk to me) 10$ at door

April 9th - The Parking lot 364 king st? (you will have to check back with me on that one lol)
6p.m, 5$ at door

April 30th - Youth center 250 Hespler Road
(Tsunami benifit concert/ Memorial for Frankie Foreman)
11 a.m. 5$ at door (donations for tsunami and Frankie's family(funerals cost a lot!) will be accepted)

May 6th... no details yet but keep you posted haha